Growing up

Well, Last year at this time I was packing for a trip to Colorado. So much has changed in just 12 months! I'm almost a different person, I'm at a different place in my life, I know different people, I'm doing different things. I guess this is all part of growing up.

I was listening to my senior speech recently, and I had forgotten what I had said. but I talked about how no matter what I was doing if it was what God wanted me to do, and I was giving him all the glory, then I would be content. There was/is no highway option. And there really isn't in the bible, God is very straight forward about this is how things are, I should be number one...the end. And yet somehow I always forget this one thing. I remember all the other stuff, but the whole God being Numeral Uno is just something that slips my mind so often! Right before I watched myself delivering this speech I had been complaining about my job and how I think it stinks, and my boss doesn't really like me I think, and all the people I had to deal with. After I watched it I was a little bit like: "open mouth...insert foot". But its true, we lose sight of our goals, and things as time passes. When I was younger (...we're talking like 12,) I wanted so badly to be a Airline Pilot, Clearly God had other plans. But I really wanted that. REALLY...REALLY wanted it. And I feel like lately I haven't wanted anything like how I wanted that. It makes me a little sad that I've lost my fire, my ambition to go out there and do something!

"According to my earnest expectation and hope, that in nothing shall I be put to shame, but that with all boldness, as always, so now also Christ shall be magnified in my body, whether by life, or by death." Philippans 1:20

This kind of outlook on life is easy to go around saying. I mean, in my speech this is the verse I used to show that God will make me content, and yet here I am 2 years later and I am having issues with it. To the point where I forget that this is what I had my heart set on.

God has so many plans for me, most of which I don't understand or could even hope to see yet.

"[I pray] that the perception of your mind may be enlightened so you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the glorious riches of His inheritance among the saints," Ephesians 1:18

This is what God has for me, an Inheritance among the Saints.

This is something that God has been showing me in the past year. I would have never been up for this kind of thing a year ago. I wouldn't have understood it. Which I guess is why God gives us little bits of wisdom when we are open to them. Because someone could have told me this like 5 years ago....I didn't get it then, I get it now.

His timing really is best. It's all part of growing up, both in age and maturity.

Also, on a completely different note, I cannot figure out the whole font thing on here. So....that is why it kinda looks weird. No it isn't your eyes, don't go to the Doctor...your eyes are fine. It's my ignorance of this program. =)

Poem....not by me.

Somtimes I fight

To be the best that I can

But there’s always compitition

And I don’t always win

There’s one place in my life

Where I never have to compete

It’s in the eyes of Jesus,

For his love makes me complete

Some days I feel average

Other days I barely measure up

But everyday with Jesus

I’m made perfect by his love

All Glory to the King

Who gives power to overcome

To daily rise above my ruins

And live for him alone

So I was in my brother in laws sunday school class today, and He was doing a short study on Acts. Well, I happen to have learned a lot.

Acts 1:11 says: “They said, ‘Men of Galilee, why do you stand looking up into heaven? This Jesus, who has been taken from you into heaven, will come in the same way that you have seen Him going into Heaven.”

The part that struck me was these Men in white clothes (vs 10) came down to find the deciples staring into Heaven where Jesus had just gone. And they brought the Deciples back down to earth. Like yeah, that was cool, but there is still stuff to do here!

And sometimes I know I get caught up in what just happened...or what is going on right now that I just stare. When really I should be in there.

The other thing that really got me thinking was Acts 4:20 which says: “For we are unable to stop speaking about what we have seen and heard.”

HOLY COW!! This is what they said to the people that were questioning them! We have all seen God’s hand moving, and yet we are able to speak of other things. I feel like all charged up and ready to fight! Bring it SATAN! =)

Yes, I just said Bring it to Satan. =)

So also today, I didn't think I'd make it up the hill....the very little hill from my house. Tis true, I almost didn't make it. Then at 9:30 this morning it was almost a white out. And at noon it was so sunshine-ee that I needed sunglasses. And tonight it ended up being a wonderful sunset....wonderful = you could see it. Oh Syracuse weather. =)

And my hands are freezing all the time. Ugh! I can't go walking around with gloves on all the time either. This is truly a dilemma.

Lightbulbs

So I don't know how this always happens to me, but my lights in my room ALWAYS go out at the same time. Okay....maybe always is an exaggeration...but that is how it feels sometimes.

A while ago....less than a year ago really I bought this book called 'His Princess Warrior' and its by Sheri Rose Shepherd. Basically it is an amazing book that made me cry when I first read it. MY favorite thought from the book is: Stand.

"When you are too weak to fight, My beloved Warrior. I want you to simply stand. When the spiritual warfare around you becomes great and you are in the heat of the battle and don't know what to do, I want you to stand! Yes, stand on My promises. Stand for what you know to be right! Stand in the gap for those you can't stand on their own!

Yes, My love, evil days will come, but you have My Spirit inside you, and in My power you can and will stand. It is your confidence in Me that will give others the strength to stand with you. Once you have done everything you can, you will still be standing.

Love, Your King who stands in for you"

Do you see what I mean!??!?! Ugh!! It's all so true! And the book is filled with things just like this that are true and just what I needed to remind myself of! It's like all my lightbulbs go off, and then I remind myself of all God's promises and I replace them. That is how I tie the first story into the last half of my blog.

Philippians 1:20

WOW!! So it's been a while since I wrote anything on this Blog. So long I had to think about where I had started a blog....then what email...and then! The password! ugh...I got it right. Eventually.

Anyways, I had my friend Melissa here with me for a few days and she hadn't seen my speech from Grad. So I showed her. MAN!! I am GOOD!! =)

And God is good. I talked about Philippilans 1:20 "My eager expectation and hope is that I will not be ashamed about anything, but that now as always, with all boldness, Christ will be highly honored in my body, whether by life or by death." And how no matter what I was doing, if I was doing what God wanted me to do and giving him all the glory then I would be content. And lately I've forgotten this. Mostly complaining about my job especially around the holidays, But God gave me this job for a reason...I don't completely understand the reason now, but I can only see a little bit of his great plan.

This blog is at the request of some people who aren't patient. =)

Good news is I finished Isaiah. Started Jerimiah....already have read most of it.

Yesterday was fun. The Pilot light went out on both water heaters here. Yesterday morning I went to get in the shower and was like...Colorado cold water puts a whole new meaning to cold water in the book! I'm pretty sure it came straight from the Mountains!

Also yesterday a snow storm hit. Its pretty crazy when you can see it dumping on the mountains and know its coming for you next! I'm sure its beautiful....but right now...I'm cold. And snow doesn't look to pretty.

I went to a concert on sunday night. It was good. Bands like MercyMe and David Crowder, Fee, Francesca Batestelli, and ooooo...My fave EVER...Family Force Five. And skinny jeans were part of the uniform. MMMmmmmmmhum. I had no clue. And now....scared. FOREVER!

Family Force Five was just a fail of a band. They all had the same thing on. A Blue shirt thing...whit skinny jeans of course. Oh goodness. I wonder if anyone tells them whats appropiate to as and whats not. One guy was like...loosing his pants. EW! The "lead singer" was rolling around on the stage. He also said "colorado has a lot of good looking people, its okay to be christian and good looking". Thats the part where I just started laughing. I wanted to be like, do you realize how stupid you look? Because...we all do!

David Crowder was pretty awesome! I like him a lot better live then on CD. I know....backwards.

FEE was UH-MAZIN! The lead singer totally had his head on straight. And the songs were pretty cool too! MercyMe went last and started off with a Beatles song. (cough knew the song cough) I guess it made sense...kinda. Ok....I didn't really get it. But it was cool. Oh, and it was only ten bucks to get in! That was wicked sweet!

Thats about all thats worth mentioning. Well...and Remedy Drive needs to take a chill pill. They were....Um....They would be MUCH better on a CD. Where you don't have to watch them perform.

I went to some outlets, and got these necklaces for some people...who probably read this. Anyways....they are supposed to be a letter in the alphabet. but....no one can figure out what letter its supposed to be. But it looks cool. And they were pretty cheap. SCORE!

OH MY GOODNESS!!!! I am TURNING INTO MY FATHER!!! 8pm I'm super TIRED! I'm like...lets go to bed...'k? How did this happen? WAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaa(this is just me complaining....so you can skip the next bit)aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Anyways. I gotta go eat something. Finish up some projects. Stay confounded to the house all day. Fun things. =)

Do not eat the eggs!

So, this week I encountered something that I had never experienced before.
Food Poisoning.
I think my life can be long and complete if I never have to do that again. About the third or fourth trip to the Porcelain Throne all I could even think was "Please God, take me now! I don't wanna live. I just wanna die and have a perfect body where this kinda thing WON'T HAPPEN!" Obviously God did not take me, he must still have things for me to do.
God bless the Maid! She came in on Friday when 3 of us were incapacitated and disinfected EVERYTHING! changed all the sheets, and was really quiet! She was an ANGEL I am sure of it!


So now that you have the knowledge of all things gross, lets move on.
Indiana was interesting. Very....VERY cold. But not snowey. (HA-HA)
Snday morning we went to this really good breakfast place. (It was super good because I hadn't eaten "real" food in like 3 days) I think it was called...."charlie browns pancakes" maybe. Possibly not. Anyways....while I was there....I asked the waitress if the iced tea was cold or hot.
Ba-dum-TISH! (unfortunatly....its all true)